Wednesday 31 December 2008

Happy New Year to everyone!!!

Ok, this is the time of year when I am really busy, 17th November Koji's birthday , 22 December George's birthday, 29th December Zangi's birthday and of course there is xmas as well as new year...so I am not functioning at all ....literally, went shopping yesterday and I spent £120.00 on bras....my heart is still very painful and unfortunately I cant return them...very good quality but that is too much to spend on bras! Anyway that is how crazy my life is.

I hope you all had a lovely Chrismas and will soon have a Happy New Year.

More in 2009. Keep well and thanks for reading my blog

x

Friday 21 November 2008

My boy is 1yr old...Yepeeeeeeeeeee!

Baby who hates camera flash and he always makes funny facess when his photo is being taken....Wow! I just cant believe a year has gone by, time sure does fly when you are having fun.

Zangi's fav, banana and apple muffins, this recipe is from Annabel Carmel, I replaced carrots for bananas...absolutely yummy!


G & Z




Zangi listening to music and maybe even playing a game on computer...not good :-( way too young to be playing games on computer.



Koji eating nappy wipes...lol!




Zangi eating homemade pizza (George's recipe) this pizza is deliiiiiish! you will never eat any other pizza after eating this one, it is yummy and packed full of goodness..I am getting hungry just talking about it.




Bon fire night, we were watching the fire works from the house and George in the garden, you can tell by the confusion, Zangi scared shitless and Koji just going crazy, they dont like the noise so I think we will live bon fire night for now and revisit the idea 2 or 3 yrs from now.



Baby eating Daddy's homemade pizza and not wanting his pic taken ;-) love you son and happy 1st Birtday again.



Random pic...G and Zangi





















Wednesday 19 November 2008

Happy 1st Birthday my darling








Happy 1st birthday son, you can probably see how much Koji hates the flash, he is always squintnging or doing something really strange(he absolutely hates the camera flash!) this is one of the cup cakes from his frist birthday cake that he shared with friends, he had a ball, he is almost standing and almost walking...Happy Birthday Son! Mummy and Daddyy oh and big brother love you so much...xxx ...more pics of Koji to come.

Thursday 13 November 2008

Yvonne



My Dear friend Yvonne. Looking good babe!

Half of a Yellow Sun

My father in law bought me this book (Half of a Yellow Sun) about a year ago and I never really got to read it and I am trying to read at least 7 pages before I sleep, very interesting so far but the names are just something else, it is written by a Nigerian authour Chimanda Ngozi Adichie, (In the 1960s Nigeria) It got a lot of raving reviews by the daily mail, richard&judy reading club etc but the names are just doing my head in O!....I have to finish it as it will be the only book I have read the whole of this year...how sad is that?!!! And this is just making me sad because all my books are in storage, I love having my books on the shelves so I can just pick and choose...know wot I mean.

The weather is rubbish today like most days in Winter, Koji and I have really bad coughs and Zangi is running a riot staying at home... so I am thinking we are going to try baking some of Hannah's delish muffins and then later in the afternoon we can do some painting. My son is quite an artist, anyone interested in some art work, lemme know (I am his agent as well as his manager)...yes! Keeping it in the la familia.

Have a fab day where ever you are in the world.

Wednesday 12 November 2008

Blogger lashes out!!!

My Dear friends and family that visit my blog...this has absolutely nothing to do with you... and I really do appreciate that you visit my blog, this entry is for certain somebodies and I am so sorry that I have had to lower myself to this level but I had no choice as this is how low they really are.

I have a draft entry that I am probably going to publish this evening when I get a chance and the kids are asleep. Apparently there are some B & W who dont know what the hell a blog is so that entry really is for them , I am explaining in lay man term what it is and why I write and why they should never visit my blog if it is not to their taste...they are a million other blogs out there and if you dont like mine, leave! (You know who are...and you have been questioning and asking and its eating you and yet you still come back for more....! Dont bother yourselves my dears just find something that you like elsewhere and please read the disclaimer. Kapish!

Saturday 8 November 2008

Making things

Pouch made of African fabric



Mande's bag made of African fabric, emblished with vintage buttons.

Beautiful African Doll made from organic materials, she is wearing a dress made of african fabric with matching bloomers.




Chama's visit to Edinburgh

Edinburgh Castle ( using not so very good camera)...yeah always blame it on the camera when you cant take good pics.

Chama and I when we were about to go out to dinner... 6mnths pregnant with Koji


Chama at Beef eaters....we were so hungry and the food took ages!


Congratulations President Barack Obama

I have been speechless for the past few days about Obama being elected president...I have been dreaming about it and really I have no words and everytime I think about it, the hairs on my back stand up from excitement of course...I am just so pleased, we have made history and now we know that as black people the sky is truly the limit, we are now in the most powerful office in the world...wow!!! This just means that for all you brothers and sisters out there who are dreaming of becoming a somebody or doing something extra ordinary now you know that it can achieved, Obama has shown us the way...it is totally doable!!! I am now officially a number one fun of Obama. Well done, I honestly could not say this enough. Just looking at him in the photos or watching him talk, you just know there is something special and extra ordinary about this guy. I should also commend McCain for his speech, I thought it was nice, he is a gracious loser and I kinda felt sorry for him a bit. I am happy that I am alive to see history made.

I am writing this in a hurry (Enlish, grammer and spelling not to good), kids running riot. Gotta go!

Peace love and hair grease
x

Sunday 2 November 2008

I miss Zambia

Thats me in Zambia (Safari Lodge) September 2004

Reading a book....(Safari Lodge)

Homemade







The Best Race Car Driver In The World

May I start by congratulating Lewis Hamilton.....Well done! Brilliant race, nail biting and you just did it....oh well done! a very nice end to a glorious weekend. Good race...and again well done!

Last night I watched a documentary called 'Billion Dollar Man' it was about Lewis Hamilton, I was touched and impressed at how much him and his Dad have worked so hard to be where he is, I know in the previous post I criticised him for seeing a pussycat doll. Now all I want to say is well done for all your hard work and you deserve to be happy and live your life to the full...Wow! Well done kiddo

Friday 31 October 2008

Wedding dresses & Bridzillas

After a lot of compliments about Mande's wedding dress, I felt compelled to explain one or two things about wedding dresses and also to give you the website of where I think should be any brides first point of call when shopping around for a dress (www.pronutia.co.uk) or you can just google pronutia. This place is amazing! This is where I bought my fabulous wedding dress which I recieved raving compliments about, so far I have met at least 7 other brides who told me they also went to pronutia, literally went in picked a dress and it just felt right, also the dresses are so reasonably priced its unbelievable! (You know where you look at the price tag and you think no there must be some kind of a mistake).
If you can go into a shop and pick a dress right there and then on the spot then you know you have made the right choice, you are choosing a dress that represents you and your personality, these are dresses that just fit you like a glove (they really do!) so my point is, Ladies you should never let anyone buy you a dress, it does not feel right , a bride knows how she wants to look on her big day, she wants to look sexy, sophisticated but yet comfortable, she already has an imagine how she wants to look when thee ONE pops the question.....I know a few people who have worn dresses that have been chosen or bought by other people...they look hideous! and a friend of mine wore a dress that was bought for her, she hated it! but she couldnt really do anything about it as she had spent top dollar for it, she had no choice but wear the hideous dress (sorry mate, maybe when you renew your vows you can choose a dress of your choice...no?! A bride forms a relationship with her dress when picking it, you imagine yourself wearing it on that special day, you imagine how you will look walking down that aisle and that first dance...aaah heaven

Its kinda the same kinda feeling you feel when you meet the ONE...you just know in your hearts of hearts that he is the one , you can sort of see yourself with him in the future with a big family and I am sorry to disappoint, the ONE does not give you butterflies, the one is a reasonable mature kind of love, the butterflies are there but these are kind of butterflies that come with time and they grow as you are getting to know each other as man and wife.... the kind that you nature not the kind you feel when you are with a Brad Pitt look alike on drunken night , oh and I just have to throw this one in or the Daniel Craig look alike (you know how itslike when you are drunk, you see whatever you want to see).

Anyway, its kinda the same thing with the dress, you just know when you see it, you know its right and you know that in 30yrs time when you look at it you will be like wow...! unless you have je ne se que like my late sister josephine then you can design your own killer dress (damn that woman had class!)

Look out for future post of my wedding dress, I cant actually find a pic of our wedding on this computer :-(

So to you all brides to be, you better chose right and I mean the dress and the ONE. And remember be nice to your bridesmaids....do not become a Bridzilla!

More family photos

Mnayani, my very dear friend miss you lots!


My best friend and sister in crime Charity with Chase & Cayden.


Zangi at Mande's wedding tucking into some strawberries and keeping his toy cars close to his heart.


Thats me in Edinburgh at the Portabello beach on a not so hot day, all the same having a nice time (I was 5 mnths pregnant with Likoji).


Wednesday 29 October 2008

Baby Stefani (Zuma) Hilarious!

I just cant believe that Gwen stefani named her son Zuma....QWA QWA QWA QWA....!!! these celebrities have lost it next will soon hear someone has named their child Mugabe, oh my gold! I cant wait for her to discover who her child's name sake is...LOL! This is hilarious and I will be bloging about this again, I saw it and I just couldnt wait to share.
You know I should write a African names baby book, I think that will sell well, names with a true good meaning...real names like Zangi and Likoji, unique names like that.

Family

My sweet Mulamu Mwenya my sister in law with Wana Kisu *-*


Daddy and his little girls (Moseni and Wana Kisu)
Ooooh! I love this photo, this photo should be entered in a competition or something or make chrismas cards using this photo, it would be one of those cards you just want to keep forever!
Having said that, check out this card company its called colourblind cards...they make such lovely cards, this girl Jessica is so clever! She saw a gap in the greeting card market of absolute lack of greeting cards featuring non Caucasian children and adults...and she went for it and their cards are just adorable. check it out! here http://www.colorblindcards.com








How could I forget tell you about my Mummy





That is a photo of Colette (my mummy cut).

Let me tell you about life, life is very interesting, well I guess you already know that but I will speak for myself, it has thrown all sorts of things in my direction and I must say most have been very good things and very good people, one of the many important people in my life is my mother and my very good friend Rosemary, I met her in Edinburgh when I worked for the NHS, brilliant times even though at the time she must have thought I was crazy, which I was truth be told. Our friendship grew stronger after I left and a few months later she retired, she has always been there for me and whenever I have needed a shoulder to cry on or someone to listen to my crazy rumblings she has always been there so thank you so much. Rosemary has really proved that you dont necessarily need to be blood related to someone to be relatives and she is just that.

I shall post some photos of Rosemary at a later stage. Mrs Rosie Smith, this is your post, I guess I just wanted to say thank you for being a good friend.

xxx


This Post is for my Darling friends Sibongile and Yvonne

In this pic, Yve and Ime...Hmmmm cant wait to see the bambinos. xox

Thats Sibongile in red, sorry I dont have a photo of Yvonne. Really I just wanted to say thank you for being such good friends and I always look forward to your emails...they are always long and juicy, I wait until the kids are out of my hair and then I make myself a lovely cupa tea and sit and read....with a huge grin on my face. Have you ever had friends that you havent seen for years but still feel a strong connection and really the only thing that keeps us apart is the distance and even then the lovely heart to heart emails make up for the distance. I am one of those people that honestly really count myself lucky to have you guys and know that whatever ramblings I send you I know that you get me and you know what I am talking about. So this post is to you both, you are both doing something that will making a difference to the world we live in, I am a huge follower of what you are doing and I just want to say keep it up and keep representing. I love you and I will always be your friend.

xxx








Sunday 5 October 2008

Lewis Hamilton


My bestest and favourite race car driver, Wow the kid is flying and I was so pleased when I first saw him I was like wow what a fine arse! he is super cute and humble and a very good driver and honestly I just look at him as a young brother and I am really rooting for him....even though recently I was a bit shocked! when I learnt he was seeing a pussycatdoll...surely not! He could be with some nice decent young lady not one who goes round parading in mini skirts and wearing tight fitting leather cat suits looking like catwoman...the girls cant even sing, I dont understand what the hype is about...well the only song I know or heard (not by choice) is 'dont you wish your girlfriend was hot like me?' I hate that song with a passion!!! If I ruled the world I would ban that song from being played full stop!
Anyway because it is Lewis we are talking about and he is like my young brother, I guess I just have to warm up to Nicole and see the nice side of her...(which is?????) .
Anyway I am sure Nicole is a lovely warm person otherwise Lewis wouldnt be with her...my only word to Nicole is look after that boy and dont break his heart. I have a feeling she is a Heather Mills, I dont know why but will see, time will tell.
I have to stop here lest people think, I am totally crazy and become a celebrity stalker.

Sunday 28 September 2008

Carb-a-licious!!!


Thats Mande in the pic....the blashing bride, you looked very nice I am very proud of you kiddo!

Ok, Ok, Ok! I know I said I was only going to put a photo of me at least until I have lost a few stones but I just couldnt help it, I really like this photo of me...fat or not, I was so happy and it shows! My lil sis was getting married and if that is not a good reason to look yummy, radiant and fabulous then I dont know what..... enjoy!






Friday 26 September 2008

SAT NAV

Yepeee!!! My darling husband bought me a sat nav so the countryside is my oyester! Can you imagine getting lost in the middle of nowhere on a dark rainy day with the children in the car...nightmare!!! So I am really looking fwd to enjoying this baby and he bought a top the range type but didnt cost too much. ( I hope not) says the lovwa. Oh plus I have this interview in York at 6pm so the sat nav will come in very handy and I guess you are thinking ah finally she should start work...no no no no my dear friends I have decided to go to school...imagine?! hitting the books again...as if I have ever done it before...lol! actually this time I am really serious and I have found something that I am really passionate about and before I can start braging about how wonderful my career will be after I finish studying, I will wait for that acceptance letter and hopefully I will be able to wow them at the interview...you know me, intelligent things do sometimes come out of this big mouth I have been blessed with....plus charm and enthusiasim. lol! ok, I am putting you off. I will go and finish my red wine and go to bed.

nitey nitey...and you say pyjam pyjam

Friday 19 September 2008

Livin' la Vida Loca (George is back!)


Hello everyone, George came back yesterday . It was lovely having him back and he came home earlier than expected which was great, he helped with feeding times, feed them babies, bathed them and read them bed time stories and guess what I was doing?????? No, I was not running around like a crazy chick, I put my feet up and poped a bottle of wine and caught up with master chef professional and later we watched 'I am Sam' . OMG, I am have always been a Sean Penn fan he is absolutely my old time fav, in this movie his performance was brilliant and I cried buckets full and for those of you who havent seen this, I strongly recommend that you do, he acted the part of the autistic/mentally handicapped man who had a baby with a homeless chick and she ran off and he kept the baby and then there was this courtroom drama about where he was fighting to retain the custody of his daughter (Dakota fanning).

His lawyer Michele Pfeiffer who was a real witch from hell at first and then she softened up and really warmed up to Sam, he changed her life. This movie would change anyone's life and how we look at life and people with learning disabilities....brilliant performance from all three.

So yes, it was a lovely pleasent weepy evening....and I have gone soft! Which is good because I was begining to worry that I might have stopped crying completely. Eish tough life.

Shoka night at the Hotel Intercontinental Lusaka

I cant believe it is almost 4yrs since the last time I was in Zambia. Thats my wonderful Mother in law in the photo. This day was just lovely, we went to the intercon for a swim and later had massages.Friday night at the Intercon they have shoka night, after our lovely Zambian massages (uku china) we had some drinks and then later made our way to the pool side. Upon arrival those of us that drink 'munkoyo' (traditonal Zambian brew)It was just the best I have ever had. The last time it was drunk in our home back in Zambia some people got really ill and ever since then I never touched the staff. (Mum had gone to a kitchen party and brought some home...we vowed never to touch outside catering munkoyo again)

Oh, lemme tell you about Shoka night, there was so many different types of traditional Zambian foods as well as western but you know how it is, I had to keep it real and feast on the food that I have not eaten in ages...kalembula, kapenta, finkubala, lumanda, chibwabwa, impwa, dried fish, fresh fish, chicken, beef, game meat and even crocodile (tastes like fish/chicken) It was pleasent and I would eat it again. The entertainment was great, we were entertained by traditional dancers and lekker Zambian music...awe mwandi it was wonderful and a very good introduction to George and Mum of what was to come later while staying in Zambia.

Anyway, we went to Safari Lodge for two days, It was awesome, peace and tranquility (iye can I use these two words in one sentence??? anyway you get the picture right.

My Mother in law is very adventurous, she once went to Lusaka West with my Aunt. They traveled by mini bus, it was jam packed ! you can just imagine chickens, children crying etc...the mini bus was moving side to side trying to dodge the pot holes, she could not believe the speed the mini bus was travelling at, they got to their destination safely and on their way back they had lunch at Lusaka city centre, plate of chips and sprite, we were there for a short time and there was just so much happening, matebeto for George who got up and danced with the Makishi and I must say I was so proud of him and I was happy he was having a wonderful time.
We managed to squeeze Livingstone in our trip, was there for 4 days and I only have one word to say, AMAZING!!! It was a well deserved break from Lusaka, we swam everyday, bird watching, swimming in devils poo (oh my, what was I thinking???), elephant safari, eating and more eating.


I am now looking fwd to taking the boys home, when they are old enough to understand so they can enjoy themselves (air tickets are so pricey!) So if you are you planing a trip to Zambia one must really make it worth their while and that is exactly what I plan to do. Take my boys to rural Zambia, so they can have a taste rural life....Lusaka has become like a little JHB and kids are just not growing up the way we did, playing chidunune, climbing mango and guava trees (yum yum), playing with cars made of wire (motoka yama wire), touch oh and we used to go in the bush hunting (urban bushes having nothing in them) we were just so convinced that we would find some wild animal or something...but those were good times.......People want to bring up their children the western way of life, but to be honest with you, its not even something to admire, you really have to be here to appreciate what you have back home and the natural things children have access to...making cars, climbing tress, playing house and cooking (outside, maybe under a mango tree or something) you dont have to pay to play! children playing football and there is just lots of other children to play with...you know everyone in your community and everyone knows you, I am talking about Ubuntu way of living. We dont even know or talk to our niegbours, yes I would say hi when I see them but heaven forbid something happened to me while George was away...the kids would be alone and no one would notice (HOW SAD IS THAT????!)
while I am talking about unfriendliness and the western way of life, recently a 17yr old boy /man died in his flat and was only discovered 3mnths later (only because the mail had piled up and the post man got curious). May his soul rest peace..
Ok, gotta go! happy reading!

Children having fun

Likoji at Big Sheep Little Cow in Bedale

Zangi at a summer BBQ in Northallerton, an event that was organised by all the churches in the area, It was very nice, the sun was out,the BBQ was fantastic & the live music was great! everything was for free and the kids totally enjoyed themselves. Thanks for inviting me Jennifer, we had a blast.
xox



Get ready for 2010



We just love Grandma's garden

Likoji, Zangi and Iris in Grandmas garden...Ok this garden is just beautiful and tranquile I just love it! Ok next time I will post a better photo where you can see it nicely.




Bettys Brown Bread Ice Cream Sundae


This was a very special day to me because it was the day I became a British Citizen, after the ceremony, we went to Bettys ( One needs to visit one of these posh tea rooms when you are in North Yorkshire) they serve delicious Yorkshire and Continental confections in the shop, and an elegant Café Tea Room serves teas and meals in the traditional English style.

I was told the brown bread ice cream sundae was to die for and ooooh It was so nice but maybe not to die for...one must only die for their family or their country not food...ok I love food maybe I would.
Notice Zangi's facial expression....hmmmm very nice!

Wednesday 17 September 2008

I cant get enough of Polyvore but here is my last item




I just cant get enough of making up my own little outfits, ofcourse these are the things I would like if I had money but not lots of them though because then you just dont appreciate them. I think the glasses makes this whole out fit fabulous but a wee bit geeky.




I would wear this outfit if I was going to the Royal Ascot...its cool and does not scream here I am look at me but it quietly steals the show and says hey...I have got class and I am a lady, and my horse is wininig. yepeeee!

Congratulations Nel and Niel

My Friend Nel, gave birth to a lovely baby boy born at 7.30 am both doing really well. 7lbs 3oz...Congratulations to both of you and I cant wait to see your new addition to the family, Iris (baby's big sister) must be happy! and it will be hard work tearing her away from her lil bro. We are very happy for you love and we will make our way to Ripon sometime next week.

On another note, last night was the 2nd night alone with the kids at home and it went really well. Baby didnt sleep too wonderful, was crying and just couldnt settle, he must be teething or something, other than that, it was cool...hey I didnt even take the rolling pin for extra protection.

We are at home all day today, well I took the boys out for a walk in the morning to get some fresh air but other than that....it is boring and the weather sucks! What else is new heh.

In the News

Frence presidents wife, Carla Bruni on Jools Holland...Yasis!! I honestly dont know what to make out of her. (France's first lady of pop) come on, you have a country to look after, wake up and smell the cocoa.


South African prosecutors say they will challenge a ruling dismissing charges against ANC leader Jacob Zuma.

ZUMA TIMELINE
June 2005: Sacked as deputy president
October 2005: Charged with corruption
December 2005: Charged with rape
April 2006: Acquitted of rape charges
September 2006: Corruption case collapses
December 2007: Elected ANC president; re-charged with corruption shortly afterwards
September 2008: Judge rules corruption case cannot proceed
2009: Elections due

The rape charges story was hilarious!! If a man says that he had a shower after having sex with a woman who is hiv postive and hence there is no way he would have caught it then he is not fit to rule the country or even lead people.

The corruption in Africa especially in this case, is something I would really not want to go into....1 )I will swear until my face turns blue 2) talking or even thinking about it makes my blood boil...so I will not upset myself any further.


Ok enough day dreaming....but this is also very cool!
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Going out.... With hubby or maybe with the girls .






Nice!!! Kicking about and I absolutely love the red watch, kinda reminds me of my very first watch though it was not this expensive and mine was purple...wonder what happened to it.



I love these blue moccasins...and the pink shirt is just lovely. I was thinking the glasses are very Kanye West and I also like the bag very much! Well you know what they say if you cant go shopping go to polyvore and make up some outfits.

Tuesday 16 September 2008

We are not going to Ripon

I just recieved a call from Sophie (Nel's Mum) that her water broke last night and she has gone into hospital and will be there to be observed and see how things go, she only has a week to go so I think this is really it! Soooooo excited.

Now I have to explain to dear Zangi why we are not going to Iris's house anymore and move onto plan B (Funky Farm) boy I hate that dirty place and Zangi loves it...what can I do, the weather is crap!

Now that we are not going, I have a few minutes to bitch about Zimbabwe and Mugabe oh and the Western world....hmmmm where do I start.

Did you notice how both Morgan and bloody Mugabe were so uncomfortable standing next to each other and the hand shakes were so faaaaake! Mugabe is a meniac and a terrorist and the people of Zimbabwe should have seen this and voted him out...beat the monkey out of him or something

Zangi is being mean to his brother....better get going, I will be back for more bitching...(I didnt even start).

Good Morning

Well, Our first night alone was brilliant, I first drunk a half a bottle of red wine, you know just to calm my nerves and I also spoke to Mande (my baby sister) talking about how scared I was blah blah blah by the time I put the phone down I was a bit tipsy, so I took my rolling pin and off to bed.

I slept like a baby except I woke up 3 times, first I went to the toilet, second time I was cold so I jumped out of bed and put on my fleecy night gown and then the third time Zangi was talking to himself and I ignored him and went back to sleep (he normally wakes up at night, we hear him chating or singing for about 30mins and then he goes back to sleep) so it was not too bad....I am sure day 2 will be much better...except I can see that the boys are missing their Daddy.

Oh....an interesting article I have just read (BBC News)

Nigerian anti-polio chief removed
The chief of a village in northern Nigeria has been suspended from office for divorcing his wife because she had her children immunised against polio.


Buluma Ali has been ordered to re-unite with his wife or face "dethronement".
The head of Maisandari district said a traditional ruler was supposed to educate subjects on the importance of getting children immunised.
In 2003, some Nigerian Islamic leaders said the immunisations were part of a Western plot to make Muslims infertile.
They brought a halt to the vaccination campaign in the north of the country for a year, during which the number of new cases exploded.
"[Mr Ali] still believes that polio vaccine can render children infertile," Borno State spokesman Usman Ciroma told AFP news agency.
According to the UN World Health Organization, Nigeria is the only country in Africa and one of the four worldwide where polio is still endemic.

Anyway, we are off to visit Nel and Iris in Ripon today, wish me luck... I have never driven to Ripon from Northallerton before, so it will be a bit tricky.

Have a nice one!!!

Monday 15 September 2008

We miss you darling

George is away down south for four days and we really miss him already and I hate sleeping in the house alone (well with the kids). Having lived in South Africa it really messed me up big time, I always lived in fear especially when I was alone in the house. You know where you are laying in bed and listening to every sound and movement outside....I hated those days and I would give both my legs not to live in fear again.

Eiiish.... I read in the news yesterday about a man who was murdered over a cell phone and I further went and read the South African news paper online (Sun) what people are getting killed over is just rediculous!!! Cell phones....are you serious!! As much as South Africans will turn round and point fingers at the Zimbabwean immigrants, there has always been violence (blacks killing blacks, whites killing whites, whites killing blacks and blacks killing whites.... Eish I dont know if I am making any sense but all I have to say is that South Africans have always been ************** *******. Ok I am really sorry but this subject just makes my blood boil, in future to avoid me saying anything horrible or name calling, Iwill not talk about it (I will try not to).

Anyhoo, instead of me setting camp on the landing, Ihave decided to take the rolling pin with me. So here goes...... will let you know how it goes tomoz. nite nite